A Hard Lesson: You Do Not Seem to Doubt the World You See.
A Hard Lesson:
You do not seem to doubt the world you see.
W 151 L 2. TEXT: You do not seem to doubt the world you see. You do not really question what is shown you through the body’s eyes.
Me: I agree.
TEXT: Nor do you ask why you believe it, even though you learned a long while since your senses do deceive.
Me: I disagree. I understand that I sometimes misunderstand someone’s words, or misread something. If I misperceive something, it is my fault, not reality.
TEXT: That you believe them to the last detail which they report is even stranger when you pause to recollect how frequently they have been faulty witnesses indeed!
Me: I disagree. It is infrequent, and usually the result of me not paying attention.
Me: I can theoretically agree with the above if I base my eyesight on the principles of the Course in Miracles: That we are not bodies. That the body does not exist. That all those I see, (when seeing reality,) are eternal, blessed, holy sons of God. If I agree with these statements, (and I do, because of your teaching,) then I can theoretically agree that the senses frequently deceive, because most folks sure don’t look that way, using the body’s eyes. So, I have learned this through study, not through experience.
TEXT: Why would you trust them so implicitly?
Me: Why wouldn’t I? Your point is not proven very well here, (if my agreement is a sign of proving your point.)
Me: My prayer: “Help me to agree by way of experience.” 🙂
Typing what I am “hearing/feeling” from the Holy Spirit: When you enter into the Holy Spirit “zone”, it is the beginning of experiencing another reality. The more you find yourself in that “other reality”: peace, wholeness, etc…, the more you will experience its “vision”. You will continue to find that as that “zone” grows “inside” you, and you grow in it – you will see the reality of that zone reflected in what happens around you. Then you will see the reality of that zone superseding that which your eyes told you in the past. When you continually “see” the reality of the Holy being reflected in what the eyes see, you will understand that what you “saw” before is nothing in the presence of the Holy Spirit’s Vision.
Then, at last, I can say that my senses do deceive. Then after that has happened for a long while, I can say that I learned a long while since that my senses do deceive.
Further inner conversation:
Holy Spirit (HS): You’ve learned that you can meditate and enter a zone that is so wonderful and “real” that you are willing to walk and testify at that moment, true?
HS: You have been willing to leave your ego vulnerable through your testimony of Jesus Christ because of what? Simply hope? Or is it that you have become so convinced, through meditation and experience, that I present another reality for you to use?
Me: I am willing to preach Christ Jesus because of my conviction through study and experience.
HS: So, aren’t you already testifying the unseen?
HS: Isn’t that the same as “you learned a long while since your senses do deceive.”?
HS: So, what’s the problem?
Me: At first blush, I take that sentence, and look around, and say that “I disagree -, my senses do not deceive. I see what I see with my eyes.”
When I first read that statement, I was doing it with my eyes. I was in the “now” reality of this world. I was not in the middle of meditation. If this was easy it would be easy, but it isn’t. It took years of effort to even get a glimpse of the H.S.’s reality, so “that” reality wasn’t with me, (or me with it,) when I read that statement of yours. I was thick in the “reality” of my ego’s world, which depends entirely on the body’s senses of sight, hearing, taste, touch, and smell.
Then through this exercise here, I found I have accepted it as learning, but not experience. Now, here, after study and contemplation, I realize that your reality has been strong enough for me to testify Christ Jesus, which I do.
At those meditative moments, yes, I could say truthfully, with acceptance, that my senses mean little in the face of the fact, and scale of – Infinite Holiness. From Your reality, all that is seen with the body’s eyes is false, because perception is being ruled by the ego/devil.
When perception is given over the Holy Spirit, the “vision of the reborn Scrooge” happens, and the world is brighter, better, happier. That, according to You, is real vision. Those are wonderful sights and experiences are “pennies” that are kept and saved in heaven by the Holy Spirit, awaiting our salvation and return home, where we all share those lovely experiences with one another.
So, when reading Your statement above, I am reading with my eyes. I am in the concrete world of the ego when reading. So, it is hard to accept what my eyes see as unreal in that moment.
However, when I meditate, my mind is not focused on the finite, but the infinite. When I walk in the Spirit, I am in Love. I am in the zone, and my mind is on you, or with you. That way, You are with me. I am only beginning to learn that at that point Power is with me. At those blessed moments I am focusing on the awareness of Your presence, not the eyes so much, (but I still can’t close them and walk around. Yet.) 🙂
So now, after all this, I can say that “when I am in the zone,” I can now agree with this: “…even though you learned a long while since your senses do deceive.”
However, when I read the whole statement: “Nor do you ask why you believe it, even though you learned a long while since your senses do deceive.”
I must admit that I still don’t agree with the first part. “Nor do you ask why you believe it…” Why would I doubt the world I see when it’s all I’ve understood until adulthood? If I were to change the statement so that I can agree, it would look like this: “Nor do you ask why you believe(d) it…”
I am not at that point yet that I can look back and ask myself with incredulity: “How could I have ever believed my eyes when this true Holy reality was everywhere all along?”
Or maybe I have been at that point in meditation, but it’s been so long that it’s hard to bring to the present.
So, for now, mostly, I am operating from the viewpoint of: “I saw/felt something holy so I am testifying now,” instead of: “I am seeing/feeling something holy, so I am testifying now.” Although the former is good, the latter is miraculous.
Newbies to the picture above: Stare at one of the tiny center dots for a minute. Look at a blank wall. 🙂
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